What is it about doing something wrong ... something you know you shouldn't do but you keep doing it. I've been good my whole life ... always done the right thing ... have never intentionally hurt anyone or anything. Oh sure I'm not good about watering the plants ... but I would never deprive them on purpose ... I'm just absent minded. And yes I am guilty of partaking in the drink and have struggled with the cigarettes from time to time ... But what of this stuff that I know I shouldn't do and I still do it. I've stated that I break rules now ... I go in the out door ... drive down one way streets and don't even get me started on the "do not enter." Worse than "doing something wrong" who the hell am I to preach to someone else about "doing the right thing" ... Hell I really don't know which is worse ... and I am guilty of both of these behaviors lately. Hows it feel up there on your high road Sharon ... not so good ... so what do I do ... I'll get up everyday and try hard to live the best life I can ... I'll try to do what is right and always be mindful of others feeling ... and when I fail and I know I will ... I'm only human ... I'll try and forgive myself and go on ... because that's all I can do ... I want to leave this life with as few regrets as I can ... but sometimes, ironically, doing the wrong thing is the best thing for you ... no matter how wrong it is ... and sometimes what one person views as wrong another sees no problem with ... I guess in the end we all have to decide for ourselves what is wrong ... I am living ... and breathing for the first time in many, many years ... and there is nothing wrong with that ...
