It is with mixed emotion that I write this ... I love the fall ... but I hate to see the summer end ... don't get me wrong ... I hate summer ... hate the heat ... I love the fact that it is cooler and I can wear my thousands of sweaters ... that the leaves are changing and so beautiful ... I have more energy ... but the change of seasons sometimes brings the end to other things ... enough ...
Today I worked all day in the yard ... trimmed the bushes ... worked on the front steps (which need serious repair that I can't afford ... so ... If you fall on them ... I didn't invite you to my house so you can't sue me) ... cut all my herbs and hung them to dry in the kitchen ... will miss fresh herbs until next summer (store bought is just not the same)
This coming Thursday I would have been married to #1 for 26 years ... funny how you can't remember what you had for lunch yesterday (I had nothing) but you can remember the pain of your youth so vividly ...
So I look forward to raking leaves (is that what the kids are calling it these days) and canning and jarring and baking bread ... and I look forward to fires in the fireplace and hopefully getting the damn beast done ... There are happy days ahead for me ... I just hope the happy days I know I want and deserve...
